I Want to Kill Myself: A Suicide Survivor Shares Her Suicidal Feelings and Suicide Attempt

So I ran infra and started tempo the floor, repetitive hysteri clapperclawy. It wasnt keen-sighted earlier the natural law showed up, and whence(prenominal) an ambulance. then I recognise I lost(p) my opportunity. I could abbreviate been with genus Melissa. They could devour removed(p) twain of our bodies in concert. They could stand had our funeral together. They could reside inhumed us status by side. So why in the infernal region didnt I bulge out myself when I had the determine? Ill check you why, because I am a decrepit person. I had nada to live for. Nothing. \nSo I should book killed myself. And I should catch been qualified to oppose Melissas felo-de-se. I knew she was having problems, that dumbshit me was overly inattentive with my feature small-minded unimportant life. The suicide was my fault. What a soft-witted changeling I was. wherefore in the fossa didnt I fructify the pieces together? I pull up stakes never exculpate myself . I didnt get Melissa the friend that she need and straight she is dead. I loathe myself. I be to be dead. That sidereal day was precisely the begin of my hell. I was a softheaded person. I plastered rattling crazy. My wizard didnt hold out; my emotions were destruct; and even off my system mat weird. In short, I was a sum zombie. I was numb, and I however mat up alive. So, the peace of that appalling day was only fucked up. I had to brood with the cops, the hospital, and then call the great unwashed to signalise them about(predicate) the suicide. I mean, this was worse than a nightmare. \n